first day of fundraising.

So my first day of fundraising was AWESOME!! I raised $375 and then my $10 for a total of $385!! I'm totally excited and super motivated. I know we can do this (Steph I'm talking to you) we were meant to do this, there is a reason I am sure of it! My husband seems a little, ok so that's a total understatement, he's really skeptical, he worries about the money and the time it is going to take to prepare, and at first I was really upset and my feelings were hurt by his reaction when I came home from the get started mtg. Now that I have had some time to think about it I don't find my self getting angry about it I find myself understanding where he is coming from. It is going to take a LOT of time, a lot of preperation and money to pull this all together, even I worry about putting forth the hours and effort and still making important time for my family, which is why I have come up with the perfect solution, including them in my journey not just as supporters but as doers. If we have a car wash they come and help wash cars, what greater way to spend quality time together while raising money, lemonade stands, my kids are a heck of a lot cuter than I am and people will give way more genoursly to them :) and so on and so on, I feel good about this and I *think* once Jerry sees how much of this we CAN do as a family he will be on board.

I have started my "bows for boobs" and it seems like it is going to be a great success, i am "selling" (actually consigning) a lot at the JBF sale, if I pull in $100 from that I would be happy.

After staying up until midnight last night I certanly paid for it today and did not get enough on my to -list done, so I am off to bed so I can be more productive tomorrow. good night!!

back to good

so glad the girls are over thir nasty respitory infections, now if I could just get over my sinus infection we would be golden but I guess you can't have it all and everyone knows, moms don't get sick days.

Seems like I have a lot of things going on right now that have somehow managed to sneak up on me, Aeva is suposed to have her valentine party tomorrow and we have no cards or the item we signed up to bring, Kayleigh's party is friday and same thing no snack, no cards (Kayleigh informed me tonight that if she doesn't bring her cards tomorrow her teacher will make her sit in another class and miss the party.....not buying it)and it's supposed to start snowing tonight and turn to ice friday....oh yay, I was really looking forward to getting out this weekend and doing some family stuff but look like that might not be an option.

update on the whole marriage counseling thing: I haven't done much research but the research I did do didn't get me anywhere, I am having a hard time finding one that takes ins, or our ins. so hopefully I can get a handle on that soon, WE NEED IT!

Can't remember if I have mentioned this or not but Me and my BFF Stephani are doing the Susan G koman 3 day for the cure in November and I am sooo excited. We are pretty sure our team name is "saving second base" LOVE IT!! I can't wait to start training and get in shape, pretty soon I will turn this into a fitness/mommy blog and hopefully it will become a little more desireable to read :)

please stop the WHINING!!!

holy moly, the title says it all, Aeva whined and cried about everything, and when I say everything I literally mean when she was done eating I asked her to put her plate in the sink she had a total meltdown, she was like this all weekend and I have absolutly no explanation. She has no fever, went to bed and got up at her normal times, even took a nap saturday and sunday. I can not for the life of me figure out what her deal was. All I can say is I hope and pray she is better tomorrow cause I don't think I am eqipped to handle that for another day on my own. I feel bad because she is the middle child and unfortunatly get's the least amount of attention. Not saying she doesn't get attention but Kayleigh is in school and has projects and homework and birthday party invites, and Sara Jo is still little and requires a lot of me. So Aeva is stuck in the middle since she doesn't have any of the activities that Kayleigh does and she's old enough to do a lot of things on her own. I am working hard to do more with her and get in some more Mommy and Aeva time.

Another thing I am really going to try this week is put together a more structured scedule for the kids, they spend so much time "playing" and watching T.V while I clean and cook, and let's face it spend time on the computer, so i am going to start designating specific times to do activites with them, limit television, and try my hardest to only get on the computer when they are napping, or in bed...heh...wish me luck!

Is this week over yet?

This has been the longest week EVER! both the little girls have been sick since Monday, and so we have been housebound all week. Not to mention that I rarely get more than 3 or 4 hours of sleep these days and it's not usually in a row. It's been raining non-stop since yesterday morning and is supposed to continue through tomorrow....ugh! On the bright side I am scrap booking Saturday night with a friend I rarely get to see these days :)

OK so to change the subject, I am definitely going to look up marriage counseling and try my hardest to get us in starting next week, so step one is to find a counselor and make the appt. then find a babysitter. This wouldn't be so challenging if we had family or friends that lived close by, but everyone lives about an hour away, which makes it more challenging, but I have hope that it will somehow work out. I will update when I have more info.

Well i suppose I should go and set up some sort of activity for the kiddos they are as stir crazy as I am from being cooped up in the house all week...........bye for now.

ok ok for real this time

I really am going to start keeping up with this, I had good intentions and dang it I'm gonna do it.

So things are changing around our household lately, Kayleigh has been informed by her father that she may choose to live with him when she is 12. the problem is she is only 6 and does not understand what that means and it has just further confused her. I am still trying to explain to her why mommy and daddy don't live together and why she has a different dad than her sisters, do we really need to add the question of why can she choose at 12 and not now, not to mention the fact that it completely breaks my heart that she would want to leave me.

A few months back before Christmas I had a HUGE fight with Jerry's parents, things got really out of control here at our house and I am still not speaking to them. This has put a huge strain on my marriage and things have not been the same. I know I should be the bigger person (even though I am NOT the one in the wrong) and just forgive and forget but the wounds are still fresh and the pain is still intense. I don't really know what to do at this point My husband refuses to talk about it and we are just slipping further and further away from eachother. We need counseling but again it's all on me, I have to do everything, set everything up, arrange a babysitter every week, and basically I don't feel like dealing with all of that but I know I need to for the sake of my marriage.

That's all for now, hopefully it won't be another 6 weeks before I post again :)

the beginning

I used to blog, before myspace and facebook, and now 2 more kids later, a divorce and....well to help keep my sanity a little more intact I am jumping back into the world of blogging, hoping and praying that writing about daily/weekly happenings will put a smidge more meaning to what my journey in being a mom is all about


So let me start by introducing my first born:she is 6 yrs old, of course going on 16, she is bright, strong, beautiful (scary beautiful, and I'm not just being biased...OK maybe a little) and her favorite thing to do in the whole entire world is talk....non-stop 24/7 talk,talk,talk. She is the perfect product of a not so perfect 3 year marriage that ended just before her 2nd birthday.

Next in line is darling daughter #2: she is 3 yrs old, with bouncing blond curls and her daddy's big hazel eyes. She is shy and funny, sweet and cuddly. She is a tomboy with a bow in her hair, would go hunting in a heartbeat if mommy would even for a second allow it (which absolutely is NOT going to happen) She is the perfect product of her daddy and I's wonderful, happy, fulfilling going on 3 year marriage.

last but most certainly not least is miss peanut: she is freshly 2 yrs old and is described in one word: firecracker! she is full of energy, defiance, love, humor, attitude, joy, spirit, spirit, and more spirit, she talks about as well as her 3 yr old sister and can fight better than the oldest, she has a big heart and a strong will, she is without a doubt MY daughter.

So those are my precious gifts from God, now to get to me:I'm 28 yrs old, I was divorced from dd1's father in March of 2005, I had my 2nd daughter in June of 2006 and married my husband in December of 2006. DD#3 was born in October 2007, that's 3 kids and a 2nd marriage at 26 yrs old, did I plan it that way? what do you think? I love my kids and wouldn't change anything about my life, each road I've traveled has gotten me to where I am today which is happy, healthy and surrounded by people I love and who love me. who could ask for more? not I!